The Initiatrix Within: A Return to What Matters
‘Feminine Intelligence, Somatic Depth, and Expanded States’
In this timely and thought-provoking solo episode, Natasja Pelgrom opens Season 4 of The Awaken Podcast with a powerful call to remember the forgotten arc of transformation—one rooted not in the peaks of expanded states experience, but in the embodied return.
Drawing from decades of space holding, ancient initiatory wisdom, and her own recent darkness retreat, Natasja reframes psych*del^cs and other expanded states not as interventions, but as initiations. At the heart of this return is the Initiatrix archetype—a feminine intelligence that guides transformation through descent, mystery, and relational leadership.
In this episode, we explore:
- Why modern psych*delic culture is obsessed with ego death and “how many journeys”
- The deeper questions we should be asking about integration and embodiment
- The Initiatrix archetype as a model for feminine-informed facilitation
- Natasja’s 3-day darkness retreat as a lived descent—and why it changed her leadership
- Polyvagal theory, the default mode network, and the neuroscience of re-entry
- Why some traditions require 40 days for integration—and what we’ve lost by rushing
- How to reframe leadership in medicine work as relational stewardship, not performance
- The cost of ignoring the feminine process of transformation in facilitation and service
This episode sets the tone for a season dedicated to re-orienting our collective compass—from seeking the peak, to honoring the slow, sacred spiral of return.
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